It's the little things...

I heard some great Easter music. Lyrics that spoke to my heart, but I realized I never speak the words to God. "Lord, I need You, oh I need You, every hour I need You."  Yep, I do need God, every moment of every day. I ask him to watch over me, to bless me...but I don't say I need Him. I need to tell Him every day and I will .

Then I read something that spoke to my heart..."May there be sufficient clouds in one's life to make a spectacular sunset." My cancer "cloud" has caused me to see the small things in life that I hold special and dear. This weekend it was having my son close; close enough to grab his face and to kiss him as much as I wanted and him letting me. It was having my son-in-law come put his arm around me and give me a kiss. It was my daughter hugging me as we both sang a song with tears in our eyes. It was my husband just reaching for my hand. The small things have become most important of all.

"What is your blessings come through rain drops, what if Your healing comes through tears, what if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near. What if trails of this life are Your mercies in disguise." (Blessings by Laura Story). God has shown me in so many ways that He is near me. Good or bad, He is near me...giving me strength. I am so blessed!

Thank you God for your perfect plan. 

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My Fourth Post Chemo Report

Thank you God for your protective hand on this procedure this morning. All things went smoothly, and I thank You for that.

Yep, I got started around 8:45, I had a very efficient nurse (although she did not laugh at a single one of my jokes...very serious and very professional...which is a good thing). I did not "spring a leak" so no bio-hazard for me and I did not turn any shade of red!  I rested during the infusion and listened to good music. And I did send some "chemo text" making Lindsey very happy. I even got out of there at 2:30...earliest time ever!!!!and I got my Neulasta shot so I do not have to journey out west on Friday afternoon with all the rest of Houston leaving town for Easter.

Prayer warriors I ask that you pray for my white blood count specifically for the neutrophils. These are the "infection fighting" WBC and they are so very important because if the count drops low, I will be very susceptible to infections. If I were to run a fever, it is very hard to get a handle on the infection, usually resulting in a long hospital stay with IV antibiotics, trying to find one that the infection will respond to.  In addition, if I have another low WBC & neutrophil count, we will have to postpone chemo, and I want to do all I can to stay on schedule. So, I will be laying low, washing my hands a lot and trying to run any necessary errands in the early am when stores are less crowded. So, your prayers would be greatly appreciated.

Hope you all have a great Easter celebrating our risen Lord in a way that brings you closer to Him. And I hope you enjoy the gifts He gives all of us, whether it be family, friends or the site of a beautiful sunset and moon. He created all this because He loves us! Awesome!!!

You are awe some also. Love to each of you.

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Last Call!

Mom and I joke that I should start a blog called "texts from chemo" because chemo brain and chemo fingers seem to emerge while she's in the chemo room, and some of the best things come out.  Take today, for example:

(Ohh- bad daughter!  She's still hooked up to the drugs and can't even defend herself!  I just really liked how the "Last Call" blog title lined up so well with this "drunk" text message)

I promise this is my last post about the Sprint for Life until the event is actually over and we recap it here.  So if you can't run/walk and aren't planning on being at the event on May 3rd, feel free to click off this page and go do whatever else you need to do.

IF YOU ARE JOINING US MAY 3RD, STAY DOWN FOR AWHILE. :)

Here are the awesome people joining us on the 3rd who will be getting a tshirt and food from me:

Grace
Jody
Milton
Barbie
Sara
Lynne
Gary
Ena
Mark
Kathy
Debbie
Patty

If you haven't signed up yet, I'm ordering t-shirts Monday, so do it now (check you email, I will be gathering sizes soon)!  If you have signed up and aren't on this list, you aren't officially on our team, which isn't a problem, I just don't know about you, and thus you will have no tshirt and will have to sweet-talk someone into sharing their food.  So email me (czarlindsey at gmail dot com) and let me know and we can get you on the team.

If you aren't running/walking but are considering coming on race day, let me know.

If there is anything else I need to get you guys, I'll email you all.

Thanks!

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Happy Easter dear friends

Chemo #4 is happening Thursday
Yep, blood work was OK, not great but good enough that Dr. Bevers gave the OK, and then he went straight to his office to sign the orders!! I wonder what time I will actually get started on Thursday?Regardless, I will be praying for patience as I sit in the waiting room.
I am praying that nothing unexpected happens; no leaking tubing or allergic reactions.
I will be praying that the Nulasta shot (scheduled for Friday) will be super successful. In other words, that all the components of the white blood cells will multiply, especially the neutrophils.  From here on out, the neutrophil count will be VERY IMPORTANT.

I've been walking...
Not sprinting, but walking. I am not fast and I doubt that I will be by May 3rd, but it is guaranteed that we will be having fun at the "Sprint for Life" run (or in my case, walk).  Every time I see the video of Pharrell Williams song Happy it makes me so happy I think it should be our theme song for the walk. Be prepared for my awful singing. (You have been warned!)

A basket case...
The Morale Project basket has been a great source of comfort, support and laughter for me. Thanks for the continual reminder that I am not walking this road alone. I thank God for each of you.

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Updates and the Sprint for Life

Hi Friends,

I know many of you are too far away and haven't gotten to see mom in awhile, so here is a picture from this weekend-- doesn't she look great?  The only thing about this picture that is "staged" is that normally none of us would be dressed and out the door in matching clothes at 7:30 on a Saturday morning-- otherwise this is a completely truthful representation of mom.

While she was here, we discussed the Sprint for Life.  Mom -being mom and the lady who sent snacks while she had surgery- informed me that she didn't know how to host this event.  Hehe.  So, should you choose to join us, let me assure you that this run/walk is quickly skewing to "fun early morning party with breakfast and perhaps cocktails." Mom is signed up and planning to walk some portion of the event, so if you think 3.1 miles is too far for you to even walk, consider signing up and assigning yourself to "Dee Dee's support crew" and head back to the finish line early to drink mimosas and cheer on everyone else!

Three ways you can help:

• You've already registered- THANKS!! We are so looking forward to this event.  Make sure you are registered for our team.  So far, the non-family members of the group are Grace Judy, Milton, Sara and Lynne.  If you have registered and are not on that list, email me at CzarLindsey @ gmail . com and I can tell you how to put yourself on the team!  An event tshirt comes with the registration, but I am working on some tshirts to help identify our team, so I will be in touch about sizes.  
• Sign up to run/walk with our team!  You can register at www.sprintforlife.com.  The registration fee is $22 if you don't want to be timed. or $25 if you do.  It will go up (slightly) at the end of this week, so jump on it!
• Send Spirit!- If you are too far away or can't run/walk on May 3, but want to do a little something, let me know.  I have a surprise up my sleeve.  Email me at CzarLindsey at gmail dot com.

Five reasons you should do this:

• Free breakfast!
• "Exercise" checked off your Saturday to-do list before 9AM!
• Free event parking in the med center (and we all know the med center doesn't much away free!)
• Easiest walk ever- you register and join our team, I will pick up your packet with everyone else on the team.  All you have to do is show up on May 3.
• To be a part of a beautiful display of support, not only for mom, but for other women who are dealing with ovarian cancer.  We look forward to sharing our "support crew" with the other women, and seeing family and friends of other survivors and knowing that everyone is in it together.

Love you all dearly.  Thanks for supporting my crazy ideas and, therefore, supporting my mom.

Lindsey

PS- You've seen it a couple of times on here, but I've created a new email address- CzarLindsey @ Gmail . com (remove all spaces).  I've always been hesitant to put my email address on the blog, as that's how people get hacked and are suddenly hawking "cheap drug$ from canada" or other questionable services to their friends.  This is a dummy account that will get forwarded to my real email account and I will respond from there!

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Things to be thankful for...

Thank you God for a very good post-3rd chemotherapy treatment. No nausea, not even any of that "guaranteed" pain from the Neulasta shot....not yet anyway. A little tired, a little fuzzy thinking, but all in all, it has been good. Thank you God for your protective and loving hands over Bruce and I as we walk this walk with you. My faith and trust are in You.

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